New Place

OOhh check out the new office :) we're moving all our things over the weekend but my table is set.. what I need now is a plant. Any suggestions?

Internal view

                               View from bilik boss



Who am I?

You know, lately i feel very weird around myself. I am not so sure as to what's the cause of it but I don't feel like myself at all and I am actually acting like someone I don't like; which really annoys me.

Anyways, this blog is more as a medium for me to let out what I feel inside. Its funny how my brain works. What I feel is seldom talked about and when I really want to tell someone about what I think about, I am absolutely lost for words. From where I come from and my immediate surroundings (work or my rented room) I'm usually the odd one. Not that I am the rebellious one, its just that I'm different. I don't feel like talking about my past in this blog. I've had series of blogs before, talking about how my life before has affected me as a person I am now. I really want to talk about it though but its just that my sub-concious mind don't know how to tell it all over again. Maybe slowly in time, readers will get to know the side of me that I don't realize myself.

For starters, I'm 25 this year and currently working in a RE consultancy firm in KL which mostly are made of chinese. I enjoy working here because I feel that I'm actually practicing in a department that explores a subject that i like in uni; research. Unfortunately, the only person that I can learn and look up to for the research matter is only my director in charge and most of the people here are newbies. I know I can do  much more than what I'm doing now if given the chance.

And yes folks, I do not like the new girl because she is a typical malay attitude, effing lazy and her language is ..... (okay, you may shoot me for this one).

A reply on my blog instead

I've been wanting to put this up as a reply to the question on facebook. *laughs*. A friend post up and ask

"...kau mimpi apa semalam? apa kau mintak dari diri sendiri semalam?..."

I answered : all the things I know I can't get today *sigh*


No I did not dream anything at all that night. A silent one with the usual waking up at 330 am.

What I asked from myself the day before and I know the next day i could not get :

• Punctuality
• check the tyre
• be chirpy like the old me
• make mommy happier

 Yeah.. pretty mindless! *laughs!*

I will keep writing

Despite everything that has happened in the past 2 years and 10 months here in this place. I still feel like the one eating alone in the class during recess. No I do not like clutter and do not like anyone who thinks they know me by saying yes I understand how you feel. Bullshit.

I am great at what I do and if anyone has any problem with that, please show that you know just as much and then only you can try to challenge or better yet - replace me.

You better find backup before someone finds me soon enough and take me away. I am your best bet as at now. This estranged one can only last till year end, mind you.

Let see what "rewards and benefits" they think we all deserve. Be warned, I may act stupid and play along just to fool you.